"No. I don't want one." 
So I go about my day and think of an imaginative way to bring the subject up again tomorrow but should I care what he says? 
Why because he has said no do I step down and say ok? 
Why if a man says no to having a baby, a woman is expected to accept it and get on with her life? 
Why can't he accept that I am saying yes we are and get on with it? 
It is my body, I have to go through the pregnancy, labour and afterbirth (which no one tells you about) so surely I have the biggest say? 
I'm not about to get pregnant without his say so and will reluctantly take my pill everyday for the next couple of years but should I have to decide between a baby and my relationship? 
Call me a pessimist (I prefer The term realist) but nothing lasts forever. In relationships there has to be compromise. Should I compromise my choice to have a baby? 
Why does he get the final say? And if that is his final say, should it be our final day? (That sentence is what I like to call poetically correct.) 
So many questions to ask myself but I'm not sure of the answers. 
I know I should be grateful for what I have got and I am, of course I am. In life we tend to want what we can't have, so maybe that's why I am so transfixed on having a baby at the moment. 
But ultimately does no mean no? 
I best go and take my pill and think about the future...
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