Lost my baby

Tomorrow is the beginning of scarletts real life...the applications for schools open and I will be the sad mother on there first thing.

Not because I'm dying to get rid of her but because if I don't do it tomorrow, I will most likely forget until it's too late and she's sent to a school 20 miles away. 

These last few months are the last of the baby years. When did that tiny little bundle turn into my amazing, H drawing (she randomly did it today- child prodigy) bossy boots I have today?

Don't get me wrong those first few days, weeks, months and even years were a struggle and I am glad I will never be doing it again - but it flew. I barely remember her being a baby. Ok thats a lie, I remember the puke, the screaming (me) the crying (me and her) my ears are still ringing but how was that all nearly 4 years ago?
She's a total character now, a real little person with her own thoughts and feelings to express, which believe me she does. I'm still scared every day that something is going to happen to her, I still check shes breathing in the night sometimes, not ten times a night like I used to, or when she was in her pushchair (I hardly ever put the rain cover over as I was scared she would suffocate.) Before I know it she will be an independant woman, which is what scares me the most.

So I have to enjoy every single moment and count my blessings every day, that she is here, healthy and happy even if she does boss me around like earlier....

"You have to tidy up because I made a mess. I'm going for a bath."

Thats my girl
Xxxxx

Not so clever now am i?!

So I got an email back from my gas and electric company responding to my email and what a plank I am. "We couldn't find the account you were referring to as there is no reference number." Honestly! So now I have to go back and swallow my pride a little bit. Actually no, they had my full name I'm sure they could have searched by that or called me on the number I left for them- they are trying to make me look like a fool! (Shame I'm the one coughing on my words now- oops!) Yesterday I felt the blood supply was going to be cut off my lower half, size 8 trousers were not a good idea but they fitted better than my size 10's, how does that work?! so I went fat pant shopping and today I was sucked to within an inch of my life. I could barely breathe and I got stuck trying to take them off to go to the bathroom (which was ok because I must have sweated off like 10 pounds getting them off and on again) but at least I had a flat stomach in my skirt. on the note of letting it all hang out - I may have mentioned this before but whoever brought leggings back into fashion has a lot to answer for. The sun + cheap black leggings and a top that does not cover enough = everyone can see your pants. come on girls, sort it out. That includes the gym, there were a few sights in there. I mean I look like a hot mess, bright red, sweaty and disgusting but at least my top covers up everything it needs to. I was blissfully going through my day in the bath when there was a little tap on the door "I need to come in." In Scarlett comes and starts trying to read my book to me. No it's not the Hunger Games, I have all but given up on that. I'm going to read the last couple of chapters of the last book and failing getting the jist of that, I will just watch the film when it comes out. when Scarlett got bored of trying to read the book she proceeded to poke me in the eye and scratch my eyebrow while pointing and asking what colour my eyes were. Cheers babe. Bless her lil cottons x

Sad Sum Tum

Reality hit today I have gained a Sum Tum (Summer Tummy.) I already knew it, but trying to squeeze into my size ten work trousers this morning, I have to face the next few weeks without chocolate. (not wine, wine is good for you.) So for the next few weeks I'm pretty much going to be alternating between 2 skirts, a black and a purple. Do you think anyone will notice? they are both pencil skirts so one day I can tuck a top in and use a belt to accessorise, then then next day I can get away with wearing the same skirt and wear a long top. Being able to dress down all summer has been great, but my jeans are forgiving and have stretched somewhat and dresses are always easy to hide weight gain in the summer. So tomorrow it's back to the gym. I am going to un-cancel my cancellation from last month and work my arse off. I cant wear a skirt all winter because I was absolutely freezing today! No stupid 900 calorie diets, just stop opening mouth and start moving arse. just watching the Real Housewives of Vancouver, some of the women are absolutely vile and are like "if I want to buy a pair of $1,000 shoes, I can buy them" and the best one yet "I don't have a lot of stress. I get irritated if my latte's gross, but that's about it." some people really need a reality check. I'm like totally going to throw up in my imaginary Jimmy Choo's now Tarrah!

Silly Bridget

Never get bored of a bit of Bridget Jones. I swear ITV 2 has a contract to play the films at least 30 times a year but if one of the films is on, I'm watching my heroine.

Though I am thoroughly annoyed at the papers for giving away part of the new book, I won't spoil it for everyone else but she seems to have joined the yummy mummy club...everyone knows that right?

That is not the big bombshell before you moan at me...ohh got to go it's at the part where she tells Daniel Cleaver to stuff his job.

R.E.S.P.E.C.T.

Scottish Power's customer service (Cough)

My response to Scottish Powers 2 letters they sent me and 15 minutes on the phone without speaking to a human being. To whom it may or may not concern, How diabolical is your customer service when I phone and in 15 minutes I didn’t get to speak to anyone. I called at 5.15pm and stayed on the phone for exactly 15 minutes. I know you will have the excuse that I called at a busy time, but that is when I finish work and when I wanted to call. If you know that is a busy time then I suggest you hire more staff, as you know people are begging for jobs and I’m sure they would jump at the chance to work for a company such as yours. So as no one bothered to pick up the phone I now have to waste more of my time emailing you. i couldn’t stay on the phone any longer as you are aware I am already in debt with yourselves and don’t intend to be in debt with my phone company. Thank you for adding to my troubles. I have a full time job and a child and like pretty much everyone else in this country I am struggling, so I don’t appreciate being sent an amended bill dated 24th September 2013 then a threatening final demand dated 25th September 2013, which both arrived on the same day. I am not psychic (if I was then I probably wouldn’t be in debt.) How was I to know what the amended amount on my bill was? I suggest you check your system and amend your computer generated letters to give people a chance to respond before demanding I “pay straight away to avoid collection charges being added...” on the same day. Please could you explain my bill to me as there is an account adjustment and it states my account balance on the 30th August 2013 is £120.16 for charges for last period then, on charges this period the account balance total is £192.71. The bill period is from 14th June 2013 to the 31st August 2013. How have I incurred a charge of £72.55 on one day (31st August 2013) when I was not even living at the property at that time? I will not be wasting any more of my time trying to call so I suggest you call me on 01903 ****** after 6pm or email me back to this address. Please note that I have made the effort in trying to contact you and any more threatening letters will be looked at as harassment and dealt with accordingly. I will be waiting for your ever swift response.

Dilemma day.

I was totally freaking out earlier, I had a huge worry on my hands....what do you buy a 4 year old for their birthday???!

Scarlett went to her first official friends birthday party today. Yes she does have friends and has been invited before, but we have never been able to make it (I may have faked illness a couple of times) - but I was worried about being thrown to the perfect mother wolves!

Perfect little families, with their perfect husbands and perfect lives and then theres me, with my chaotic mess of a life.

Ok it's not that bad but I was worried about the little mother clicks and that I would be sat on my tiny childs chair in the corner, begging the legs not to break.

But the biggest childrens party dilemma of all.....the present. How big do you go? How much money do you spend? What happens if they don't like what I bought? Simple you may think, just put the reciept in the bag (yes I bought a gift bag and tissue paper as I can't wrap for toffee.) Well I can't put a reciept in that says I bought the present ten minutes before the party started. Yes I am unorganised- thank you.

Then to add to my panic, my little darling Scarlett broke a very expensive tinkerbell figurine.  Thankfully when I offered to pay, the kind lady told me not to worry- otherwise that would have had to been the birthday present- Oh what was I doing not keeping an eye on my child for every second of the day...? Well I was sniffing a candle.

It wasn't even worth it, I couldn't smell it because of this cold. Think I may have overdosed on vicks and olbas oil though....ahh feels good.

Turns out the party was fine, we were just about on time, I spoke briefly to the other parents, who were all nice. I panicked when I thought I had written the wrong name in the card, thankfully I had the invite in my bag and checked it or else I would have been rifiling through the presents until I found it. My only mess up, I did leave the price tag on the present I bought, it was only £8.00 but I felt it was fair.

I settled on a puzzle in the end, well I was running out of time but if she doesn't like it then, well hopefully they won't tell me!

I thought before we arrived that maybe I shouldn't be so mean and I should throw Scarlett a party this year as I haven't for the last two, but after 2 hours and a burst ear drum later, I'm sticking with no. She can have one next year.

So the life of childrens parties begins...we have another in two weeks....a boys! Ahh better start looking for a present now. Oh and next time I must figure out who the childs mother is and introduce myself properly as it was a bit awkward while I spent the first hour trying to figure it out. There were a lot of people and it was all a bit confusing.

Right, time for my next dose of vicks, albas oil and buttercup. Night night sleep tight x

Barg of the day...

New look coat £8.00 new look shoes brand new £ 10.00 and new look suit £4.00. Cats protection league charity shop. Happy days!