Raw

Scarlett made a comment earlier which has made me think. I don't really do this but, I'm going to open a little bit into the other side of mine and Scarlett's life. 

At times I do feel like the worlds worst mother, I never wanted my child to grow up in a split family, having to divide time between parents but unfortunately, this is how it has become. 

Sometimes the simplest conversations cut the deepest. For example earlier Scarlett asked if her daddy can come to our house when I picked her up from her Grandmas 

Me "maybe one day."

Scarlett: "Yay! I'm going to go and tell him." 

In her little head it's going to happen but in the real world, that thankfully she is oblivious to, it's never going to happen.

I hope with all my heart one day it will and we can be civil and hold a conversation for Scarlett. Time is a great healer, I just hope Scarlett doesn't have to watch the clock forever. 

I believe everything happens for a reason, laying with her now I know she is happy and content and I hope she never feels like there is any gaps in her life. 

Bless her, she just farted in her sleep....It stinks!