Tuesday 28 October 2014

Instructions please!

I found this book today....


Finally someone has heard me calling (well, screaming) for some assistance!! Shame it's only fiction and is about a woman who looks after her friends child called Scarlett after she dies in a car accident. 

A bit dramatic for me but I'm hoping it may have a few tips. 

Talking of tips, I am in need of help to find my way down the windy road of single parenting. 

Every day I feel like something else gets thrown at me. I'm not moaning, I'm just frustrated as trying to get yourself heard over a text is impossible. 

Tonight I spoke with my mum who asked me if I was picking up Scarlett on Thursday. I lost my rag a bit and said sternly that the arrangement I made was for Scarlett's Grandma and Dad to have her Tuesday night, Wednesday night and Thursday night and take her to school in between. 

I confirmed this would be applicable in the school holidays too, so the above made my blood boil as I wouldn't be due to pick her up until Friday around the same time as if she was at school. I say me but my Mum picks her up but that is not the point.    

I work full time and take enough time off for sickness and random days the school decides it doesn't want to open for whatever reason. The days were decided and we were all happy, or so I thought. 

The trouble with Scarlett's Dad and me is we don't talk or communicate at all. We haven't for 2 years. Everything is done over text with his Mum. I don't see her either as I am at work and my Mum picks Scarlett up so the rare occasion I do see his Mum it's for a fleeting moment. 

I can't be in their house when he is there and don't have his mobile number so there is literally no getting through to him. 

I know his mum does her absolute best to help me and does try to accommodate my needs but she needs a break too and it's time someone grew up and became a man. 

I was going to write a letter to Scarlett's Dad and am still contemplating it but I know it would end up in the bin. 

I don't want to wish Scarlett's life away but can't wait until she is old enough to sort it out with him instead.

I'm at the end of my tether. I need instructions for Scarlett and myself! 





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