Lost my baby

Tomorrow is the beginning of scarletts real life...the applications for schools open and I will be the sad mother on there first thing.

Not because I'm dying to get rid of her but because if I don't do it tomorrow, I will most likely forget until it's too late and she's sent to a school 20 miles away. 

These last few months are the last of the baby years. When did that tiny little bundle turn into my amazing, H drawing (she randomly did it today- child prodigy) bossy boots I have today?

Don't get me wrong those first few days, weeks, months and even years were a struggle and I am glad I will never be doing it again - but it flew. I barely remember her being a baby. Ok thats a lie, I remember the puke, the screaming (me) the crying (me and her) my ears are still ringing but how was that all nearly 4 years ago?
She's a total character now, a real little person with her own thoughts and feelings to express, which believe me she does. I'm still scared every day that something is going to happen to her, I still check shes breathing in the night sometimes, not ten times a night like I used to, or when she was in her pushchair (I hardly ever put the rain cover over as I was scared she would suffocate.) Before I know it she will be an independant woman, which is what scares me the most.

So I have to enjoy every single moment and count my blessings every day, that she is here, healthy and happy even if she does boss me around like earlier....

"You have to tidy up because I made a mess. I'm going for a bath."

Thats my girl
Xxxxx

Not so clever now am i?!

So I got an email back from my gas and electric company responding to my email and what a plank I am. "We couldn't find the account you were referring to as there is no reference number." Honestly! So now I have to go back and swallow my pride a little bit. Actually no, they had my full name I'm sure they could have searched by that or called me on the number I left for them- they are trying to make me look like a fool! (Shame I'm the one coughing on my words now- oops!) Yesterday I felt the blood supply was going to be cut off my lower half, size 8 trousers were not a good idea but they fitted better than my size 10's, how does that work?! so I went fat pant shopping and today I was sucked to within an inch of my life. I could barely breathe and I got stuck trying to take them off to go to the bathroom (which was ok because I must have sweated off like 10 pounds getting them off and on again) but at least I had a flat stomach in my skirt. on the note of letting it all hang out - I may have mentioned this before but whoever brought leggings back into fashion has a lot to answer for. The sun + cheap black leggings and a top that does not cover enough = everyone can see your pants. come on girls, sort it out. That includes the gym, there were a few sights in there. I mean I look like a hot mess, bright red, sweaty and disgusting but at least my top covers up everything it needs to. I was blissfully going through my day in the bath when there was a little tap on the door "I need to come in." In Scarlett comes and starts trying to read my book to me. No it's not the Hunger Games, I have all but given up on that. I'm going to read the last couple of chapters of the last book and failing getting the jist of that, I will just watch the film when it comes out. when Scarlett got bored of trying to read the book she proceeded to poke me in the eye and scratch my eyebrow while pointing and asking what colour my eyes were. Cheers babe. Bless her lil cottons x

Sad Sum Tum

Reality hit today I have gained a Sum Tum (Summer Tummy.) I already knew it, but trying to squeeze into my size ten work trousers this morning, I have to face the next few weeks without chocolate. (not wine, wine is good for you.) So for the next few weeks I'm pretty much going to be alternating between 2 skirts, a black and a purple. Do you think anyone will notice? they are both pencil skirts so one day I can tuck a top in and use a belt to accessorise, then then next day I can get away with wearing the same skirt and wear a long top. Being able to dress down all summer has been great, but my jeans are forgiving and have stretched somewhat and dresses are always easy to hide weight gain in the summer. So tomorrow it's back to the gym. I am going to un-cancel my cancellation from last month and work my arse off. I cant wear a skirt all winter because I was absolutely freezing today! No stupid 900 calorie diets, just stop opening mouth and start moving arse. just watching the Real Housewives of Vancouver, some of the women are absolutely vile and are like "if I want to buy a pair of $1,000 shoes, I can buy them" and the best one yet "I don't have a lot of stress. I get irritated if my latte's gross, but that's about it." some people really need a reality check. I'm like totally going to throw up in my imaginary Jimmy Choo's now Tarrah!